Happy, but tired

Jacob Seth is here and crying all the time at night... around the clock every 1 to 2 hours.

But God bless 'em. God bless 'em all. They all let me get back to sleep even though the boy screams like he's in WWII fighting a platoon of nazis. I say that because the way he looks sometimes reminds me of Winston Churchill. I often imagine him saying, "We will never surrender!" in a gruff voice.

D.C. is a great mom and she takes care of both children excellently considering her lack of sleep.

I am growing steadily concerned about my kid's future. I just found out this morning that the Governor of Saipan sent his son to the mainland - talk about lack of faith in this place. With life not getting any better here on Saipan, I regret the possibility of leaving this place worse than when I got here.

D.C. and I shortly after I moved to Saipan in 03'

But life often challenges my idea of the 'bigger picture' and reminds me of how elements are completely out of my control. I totally didn't want to leave my family, home, friends, and way of life in shiny happy Southern California. I remember saying a prayer on the top floor of a mall parking lot in the town I went to high school in - that prayer alone gave me the peace to leave home for Saipan. Since then, I got married, my wife gave birth to 2 healthy kids, I met many friends, I got my ground game established, I got to know my extended family, just to name a few.

All because of God's goodness and His way of things.

I am trusting in God who has done better than if I were to do things based on my own efforts.